Today, we met with the kindest, most knowledgeable Today, we met with the kindest, most knowledgeable doctor to discuss my MRI scans and my upcoming surgery. He spent over 50 minutes showing us my scans, answering our questions, and making sure we had all the information and options to make the best decision for us.
Leading up to this appointment, I was nervous and so so sad. Going to see this doctor made the news of my MRI real and scheduling a hysterectomy creates a finality to our journey to get pregnant ourselves. I kept wondering if I was jumping the gun too soon - and that maybe I was giving up too easily on getting pregnant.
But then we saw the images from my MRI today - and saw just how large the adenomyoma is. We heard a second doctor tell us that it was in operable. We talked about how I have been bed ridden almost every day for a month due to severe pain and how this has completely wrecked my health and my quality of life. We validated my experiences and discussed my wish for a life that doesn’t revolve around my uterus.
And so we have decided to move forward with a hysterectomy so that I can focus on getting healthy again. So I can live my life again. And even though this was an impossibly hard decision to make and even though this isn’t where we thought our infertility journey would lead us - I feel a sense of peace that this is the right step towards healing the wounds the last four years of infertility has left us with.
There is still so much to grieve. Still so much process. But I still have so much to live for - and my uterus may have stolen my fertility but I will not let it steal my life.
#infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilitysucks #adenomyosis #hysterectomy #miscarriage #ttccommunity #ttcjourney #ttcsisters #ttcsupport
Last night, @halecentretheatre treated me and my b Last night, @halecentretheatre treated me and my brother and sister to a showing of Guys and Dolls. Not only was the show fantastic and the cast extremely talented, but I had the best time with my siblings and loved being able to escape the stress and heaviness that I’ve been feeling over the last few weeks.
I do not take my relationships with my three younger siblings for granted. I’m so extremely lucky to be so close to them and grateful to have them to lean on. We laughed until we cried, we sang along, and we recounted the memories of our middle school doing this play years ago.
Moments of joy. I’m clinging to them and they carry me through.
10/10 recommend checking out Guys and Dolls if you need an escape from life for a few hours. It’s seriously so well done.
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Sometimes you gotta bleed to know That you’re a Sometimes you gotta bleed to know 
That you’re alive and have a soul ❤️‍🩹 
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Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for Your m Thank you from the bottom of our hearts for Your messages, your love, your texts, and your sweet gifts. We are humbled and overwhelmed by the outpouring of love we’ve received and words cannot begin to describe how much it has helped us feel not so alone. I know I haven’t gotten back to everyone yet, but know that we’ve seen and read every message.
We’re still processing the life-changing, devastating news we received last week, but we’re doing our best to find pockets of peace and moments of joy. We’re clinging to each other and to our families (both of our parents, by some tender mercy, already had plans to fly out for this weekend.)
We’re doing our best to smile between our tears. I can’t say it’s okay yet, but I can say we will rise to meet this challenge, together.
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MRI results / Infertility update. Not the news we MRI results / Infertility update. Not the news we wanted - but we’re all in this together now. Here’s what the MRI showed, and what our next steps are. 
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These sunset watercolor nails with a hint of rose These sunset watercolor nails with a hint of rose gold foil deserve a permanent spot on my feed - @polkadottedbysyd always makes my nail dreams come true. And yes, these are my REAL nails! No acrylics, no gel tips, nothing! Syd has carefully cared for my hands for two years now and has helped me grow strong, healthy nails that can handle car seat buckles, tricky wrappers, and everything in between. Grateful for pretty nails and everything these hands do for me.
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